I’m out of commission… this is getting really old. It feels like I have been at work like half the days I should have because of various ailments and vacations in 2012. This year is already off to a rough start and I am only 25 days in!!!
And this time what did I do you might ask? Hurt my back. Like I cannot actually stand up straight right now I really don’t know how I managed this but this morning I got up, felt fine, went for a good run, got back, started feeling like my back was tired but didn’t think much of it and drove to work. By the time I got to work and got out of my car to walk in, I realized something was not good. As in, I could not stand up straight nor walk right. Excellent.
I ended up going home from work because I literally could not walk down the hall to use the restroom or even really move out of my chair. I was seriously freaked out by the whole ordeal and really did not like the claustrophobic feeling I was getting by my inability to move. Once I finally got home, I applied an Icy Hot patch and sat against a heating pad the rest of the night. Exciting.
This “injury” could not come at a more depressing time. This weekend I was scheduled to run my first 16 mile run. 16 miles was the distance I could never conquer last time I was training for a marathon and here I am, yet again, unable to go this distance. Seriously, what did I do to wind up in this place, yet again? Thankfully, this issue is still plenty of weeks before my marathon but it still freaks me out…because what if there is a “next time”?
At times like this, I always get all crabby and anti-running and find myself wondering why I even bother going after my goals because something ALWAYS comes up to get in my way. Forgive my momentary rant here but I feel like I really don’t ask for much in life and really don’t have that many hobbies that I enjoy and yet I still can’t even manage to fully enjoy running as my hobby because of stupid thing like this! I realize that this is temporary (hopefully) and will soon be a distant memory like my IT Band issue awhile back but still it frustrates me to no end! I just get so stir crazy with the thought of not being able to run or exercise like I am used to! Gah!
I’ve put this in posts before but for some reason, I always need to re-read it when I get injured to remind my future healthy running self to never take a run for granted!
I am a runner. And without running, I feel like I’m missing something important in my life. And I don’t like how that feels…
Please get better soon. I promise to always stretch right and foam roll to keep you from getting over worked in the future. I promise to work towards having better posture. I promise to do more lower back exercises to keep you stronger. I will consider finding a chiropractor to keep you aligned. So please, please, please, let me be able to stand up straight soon.
One Discouraged Runner.