This morning’s run was all mental. Physically, nothing was holding me back but mentally, mentally I wanted to turn around at mile 1. Then I had a revelation. I don’t want to run the Disney half marathon in a few weeks. I want to be running the full marathon. I think because my motivation to start running was someday crossing the finish line of the marathon at Disney, I was feeling like I somehow failed myself by doing the half. This had me in a really foul mood for quite sometime and I came thisclose to turning right around and going home to sulk… and then I came across some footprints in the snow.
These are not THE footprints... just some I found online 
I told myself I would keep running until the halfway point of my nine mile run or until these foot prints ran out, figuring the latter would occur soon. Well, lets just say, I turned around because of the former! A few times along the way, I kept thinking that the footprints had disappeared and I was thinking about turning around and then sure enough! There those damn footprints were again so I knew I needed to keep going because of the initial deal I made myself.
So, thanks to those footprints in the snow, I finished my 9 mile run this morning (and maybe a slight case of the crazies for letting some feetprints be enough motivation to keep me going – ps why isn’t it feetprints when it’s two feet making the prints? Sorry again for the crazies ). Some runner out there will never know that he/she kept me from giving up on myself this morning!
The weather was a bit warmer than last week and my gloves actually were hardly necessary but it still served as a nice insulator to keep my water from freezing. I ended up working up quite the sweat running despite the snow! I also fueled at the halfway point with my favorite Clif Chocolate shot.
When I got back from my run and Sister returned from hers, I was bitching and moaning about how much of a loser I am and how much I am not motivated to run Disney and she was pissed at me but then we finally determined that I was just being disappointed in myself for not being brave enough to sign up for a full marathon and so she talked me into just biting the bullet and signing up for a marathon in May. The Cellcom Marathon to be exact! This race is in Green Bay so it will be a little drive, but nothing super taxing and we know a few good places to stay and eat up there. Normally this race would involve a lap around Lambeau Field but not this year because of some construction but I decided that was not enough reason for me to change my mind about this.
Guess I won't be seeing you in May 
I know I previously talked about waiting until next October to run the Lakefront Marathon but then we determined that I am not going to be happy until I at least try. I live my life waaaaaayyyyyy too much in my own comfort zone/bubble thing and I guess maybe my case of the mentals this morning was what it took to make me crazy enough to just sign up for a marathon again! So I guess now I am officially “training for a marathon”… not sure how this will go but I am glad I am at least brave enough to take the steps necessary to go for something I have been wanting for the last few years. So here goes nothing!
