Doubts.

Man, it feels like I should be done with my Saturday morning long runs by now, doesn’t it?! I’m not gonna lie, the mental factor of starting over for training again is so much harder than the physical action of running.  I spent the last six months training through mentally wanting to quit with the promise of how I would feel on May 20th… and that just didn’t quite end up how I thought it would  But in some ways, I am even more resolved to just keep going now because I am so stinking close to being a marathoner it hurts!

Yes?? Or am I just obsessed? Or half crazy?!?…

This morning I was planning to just run about 7 miles because my legs are still a little beat up after the “marathon” last weekend but once I got out there and got moving, I ended up covering more like 9.5 miles and only turned around because thunder started!  The first 1-2 miles were rough… I was having a little pity party for myself and being frustrated with the fact that I “had” to be out running today but after about 20 minutes, I realized I really WANTED to be out there running.  I love running.  I don’t love starting races that get cancelled but I do love running  So instead of wondering why I “have” to be training again,  I ended up glad that I still have a motivator to get out of the house to run!

Shortly after the thunder started and I turned around, the rain started… oops!  Tomorrow it is supposed to be 95+ but today it’s pouring rain and about 55.  Love you Wisconsin!

I was pretty well soaked through by the time I got back home and my shoes started to get squishy and squeaky… my very favorite feeling in the world… NOT!  But I made it back before lightening started so I’ll take that as a positive thing!

It feels so incredibly weird to be back running and technically training for a marathon right now!  After I finish runs lately, I have the strangest de ja vu feeling like I am not really the one running… it’s hard to explain but it’s just so strange!  Hopefully my mind and body get back on the same page before June 24th!

I am hoping to get in a higher level of mileage this week and then start the taper over again!  Good thing I only ended up tapering for two weeks last time because that leaves my last 20 mile run every so slightly much closer to my try #2 at marathon day.  Hopefully I’ll get in a 16-18 miler next weekend and then take it easier until race day.  I honestly have no idea how to milk out a marathon training plan to a delayed marathon day… I couldn’t find much through Trainer Google either  This could be a total disaster or it might end up working in my favor.  I guess only time will tell!

On a totally separate note, I have a loaf of gluten free and vegan homemade bread in the oven right now… it smells and looks divine.  Fingers crossed that it bakes up just as well as it’s risen!

Pre Baking…

Hope everyone in the US is enjoying their holiday weekend thus far!  So nice to have Monday off

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